Archive for January, 2010

  • Sigh

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    Its never fun to find out you have less money than you thought.  Even worse when it~s not your own money and its really that you have less money for an orphanage than you thought.  Its not anyone~s fault, just a lack of clear communication between here and the US.  Not alot of money less in the US, but about R$100 here, which can go kinda far.  So we~re back to having only about half the money we need.

    Ok Jesus.  This is when you step in.  I dont have the money.  I still am waiting to get repaid for my plane ticket, and some other things.  I~m also still waiting for my last paycheck… Dear Ansonia Public Schools, mail my check please!! Not zeroed, but just waiting for it all to come through.  And quickly.

    I hate money.  I dislike keeping track of it.  I dislike asking ppl about it.  I dislike the differences it makes between people.  I dislike how people seem all enthusiastic about what you are doing, but fail to put their money and feet behind it.  I would love it if people came and helped out in person, as well as sending money.  I would love it if they did either. 

    I don~t even like to write about money.  So I won~t.  maybe i should stop trying.  I just need to stop trying and start praying more.  Open up the doors to the storehouses of heaven for Cristo Vivo!!

  • 1-22-10

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    Brasilia, Brazil

    A little girl with an adorably dimpled face follows me, as I walk around the children’s home for the first time. She finds a jumprope, and tries her hand at jumping rope, which for her mere four or five years old is more like walking rope. Raquel is a fairly skinny little girl, wearing a heavy winter hat, even though the sun is blazing and the temperature must be reaching 80°F. I tickle her and pick her up, as she squirms and laughs at being tickled.

    We look at the buildings of Orfanato Cristo Vivo, briefly being told what each one is- the girls’ house, the house I will stay in, the office, the “library”, the house they have been re-constructing for three years, the soon-to-be functional computer room full of resurrected computers. Already some work has been done to clean up the worst part of this children’s home which has not seen any maintenance in, it seems, years, but there is much work to be done.

    There is an orchard area that has been cleared, and a friend is trying to enlist help from her friends in the agricultural program at the university to teach the kids how to take care of plants. There are a bunch of fruit trees, with fallen fruit rotting on the ground beneath them. A few weeks ago Paulo and some others cleaned up the broken glass and rusted metal pieces that were all over the ground beneath the trees. The grass grows wild and uncut everywhere.

    Then Raquel, Paulo, and I walk to a small house in the back of the property. In front of the house, Raquel walks on top of broken TVs and steps inside the house, on top of a mass of wet, dirty, molding clothes and broken toys. This is the donation pile. Raquel finds a pink barbie-type car in the pile, and she checks out its wheels- they all work. It must be one of the few working toys in this mess. She cheerfully plays with it.

    The “donation” room is more like a dump. There is a pile of old, broken TVs outside the room. The eco-conscious side of me cringes at the toxic pile of old TVs. In addition to being dangerous to walk on, all of the junk must be leaching chemicals into the ground, making for an unhealthy environment for these kids. In addition to the junk room, there are multiple piles of trash and dirt in various places on the orphanage compound.

    Raquel and the other kids don’t even seem to realize the piles of trash. They don’t realize when the babies are wet and need changing. The kids play with the trash and are asked to change the babies’ diapers. Parts of the compound smell like feces, as some of the kids have behavioral issues stemming from abuse, and defecate on the ground or the porches of the buildings.

    There are huge needs in this orphanage. Our first project is cleaning the place up. We’ve enlisted help from friends here, and already have about a dozen people who are coming to do a “Clean-up Revolution”on February 6 and 7. We plan on getting some garbage cans for trash to go in, so the kids won’t litter. We’re also planning on teaching them how to recycle things and have a compost bin. This doesn’t sound like super-spiritual work, but you cannot tell these kids that God loves them without showing them that because God loves them, we want to help take care of them and the place they live in and show them their worth. They are God’s treasures!

    -Emily Bair

    contact@thejourneyproject.org

    We’re still trying to raise money to get paint and some other supplies for our clean up days. Our goal is to raise $300 USD, and we are almost halfway there, thanks to your donations! If you would like to contribute to this work, please visit http://thejourneyproject.org/1/donate.html to give.

  • To the Luggage Robber:

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    This is to the person who pilfered things in my luggage between Rio and Brasilia:

    I think the joke is on you, really.  My computer you took is Linux, so have fun trying to figure out how to work it.  The screen also has a hole in it, so its re-sale value goes down with that.  You can’t install or uninstall anything on the computer without my master password.  You can’t even change the time on the clock without my BIOS password.  You are an idiot, that is all.  You should really stop stealing.

    The other thing you took, well, you see, its only one part of a 3-part thing.  What good is a metal pole without the other components that make it into something functional?  You screwed up my christmas gift to someone really awesome and amazing.  I hope your girlfriend dumps you when she finds out how stupid you really are, that you took a metal pole cuz you thought it had value.

    I wish you the best.  I also hope you get fired before I go back to the US.  I might booby-trap my luggage on the way back, ya know, like wrap trash in wrapping paper so you steal trash… well, that is, if you don’t get fired.

    sincerely,

    emily

    Ok, Ok, maybe that is not the nicest thing to write.  But seriously, this dude broke the lock on my luggage and took my computer, charger, and a metal pole.  He sucks.  He’s dumb.  So it could be a “she” you say?  It was in Rio.  Rio’s crime I think is by and large all male.  I have more money than him, you say?  Nope.  Not anymore.  No more job.  Christians shouldnt get mad, you say?  I remember Jesus got enraged once… not saying that its ok to get mad, but the Bible also says Don’t Steal.  I don’t hate the person, I just want them to realize how stupid they were and that the joke was on them  when they find out they cant change stuff on the computer and that they have a metal pole now.

    it would also be nice if the insurance company responds to my claim and reimburses me, otherwise I will not have computer access monday-friday starting in 10 days.

  • Leaving US

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    Leaving the US means so much more than just getting on a plane.  I’m leaving the kids I’ve worked with for months, the kids who are so used to seeing me and getting my attention and help in class.  I’m sad to be leaving these kids, some of them I know I will remember and pray for- the little guy who decided he really likes me and always moved to sit next to me at the class’s “math meeting”- as well as the autistic kids, who can’t even talk, but have such fun personalities.  As I said goodbye today, I convinced myself that I should go back and visit when I return to visit family here.

    Yet, in leaving, I know that God has great things for me to do in Brasil.  A rather prophetic guy at the prayer meeting I go to told me yesterday that I am like a meteor.  I accept that word!  I’m gonna go fly to Brasil and land there and cause an impact in these kids’ lives.  I’m ready for it!

    I feel like I’ve done this before, pack up your life and move on to a new place, and new season again.  This new year is starting with me transitioning quickly into a new season.  I am hopeful for this new season, this new work.  I’m also so grateful for the doors that have been opened up and am praying for continued open doors!

    As I wrapped up my last day at the school here, I realized that I no longer disdain my hometown.  I used to dislike it and the people there.  Now that I have gotten to know the kids who live here, I can say, truthfully, that I really like the people who live here, even more, I love alot of the kids.  I know as I move on, I will remember the kids at the school and my first autistic protegees.

    I’m looking forward to encountering a whole new group of kids, and learning to love them with all their baggage and issues.  I just want God’s love to pour out on them in Brasil, the same way that I have been able to pour out on the kids here in my hometown.  I’m praying that God brings back my Portuguese abilities so I can effectively work with the kids in Brasil!  That will pretty much be the only difference, because kids are kids, no matter where they are, no matter their family background, no matter how much abuse, no matter what disabilities they have, they all just need attention and love and some discipline as well!

  • Jump

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    2 weeks until I Jump.  I give my notice at work today.

    As I have overcome so many fears about jumping into the unknown, last night as I was praying, I just really felt God was telling me to just jump.  Jump, thats it, its ok.  The unknown is where He works best.  So here I go, jumping into the unknown.